I feel like I have many topics worthy of a blog right now, but I think vulnerability is a good place to start.
I have shared before that I have wanted to start a blog for years, but just now decided to get around to it. Is it that my life was so busy I didn’t have time to start one? I’d like to tell you yes, but the truth is my life with a 10 month old is way more fast paced and busy than it’s ever been. So, that’s not a truthful answer. The real answer is: I’d feel vulnerable. I love words, and I love writing, and even think I have a lot of good ideas/opinions/thoughts that everyone should have a chance to hear. However, could I actually sit down and type them out when I knew they’d be open to anyone in the world to read? And could I allow not just anyone, but my closest family and friends to know what I think? This is a very scary thing for me. What will they think? What if I really can’t write? What if no one wants to read what I have to say? What if no one understands me?
I just said, “I love to write.” I do. But, I haven’t done any writing, because good works of writing evoke emotion and feelings. Those emotions and feelings would most likely be known to me through experiences I’ve had before. But, again, am I brave enough to share them? For 27 years the answer has been “NO!”. Then I saw this:
This quote showed me that it was okay to not be “great” at something your first try. How else will you ever improve if you don’t try? Sure, that’s not a new concept, but this quote woke me up to it. So what if no one likes how I write? So what if a post here and there really stinks? It doesn’t matter. What matters is I’m giving myself the chance to grow. A chance to push myself to uncharted waters. A chance to really dive in and experience something great, and tap into a piece of myself I may not be familiar. A chance to close the gap. So, I’m making a commitment here and now (which I’m also fearful of) to continue writing. To go through volumes of work, so that one day my work will be as great as my ambitions. Will you join me?